Buried Dream in a Rugged Book

By Michelle Melinda

My name is Michelle Melinda, I come from Indonesia. I’m studying Master of Finance (1 year). My favorite genre is mystery and romance.

The city that never sleeps, they said. 

I stood amid the crowd, 

sipping coffee, 

bracing myself to examine corporate funds. 


The flowers had begun to bloom, 

as if to remind me of her favorite season. 

Then came a call, 

pulling me from blooms to sorrow. 


Today, I return to my childhood home,  

ten years after drifting from place to place.  

I walk to the end of the silent, endless hallway  

and the door creaks open like a memory refusing to fade. 


Inside, the air is earthy and, aged,  

rising from dusted wooden frames.  

I remember her feeding me baked dough by hand,  

while mine stayed clean. 


I sink into the leather couch.  

My fingers brush dust her photo.  

I glance toward the window, and whisper:  

“Mother, have you arrived yet?” 


I rise and bump into a shelf,  

catching an old, worn book.  

Its weathered cover opens,  

and a photo of her slips softly to my feet. 


I pull the book's ribbon,  

which takes me to a stained and torn page. 

Folded quietly beside her kitchen’s bread recipe, 

there, penned by her careful hand: 


“Could I be the one, 

a teacher, like rain that nourishes the earth, 

where seedlings sprout, 

as a sturdy ground to grow? 


Could I be the one,  

to plant the seeds of knowing, 

in soil still fresh with dew, 

where the quest for truth takes root? 


Could I be the one, 

to watch them reach for the sunlight, 

as every question builds a nestled bud, 

waiting to blossom radiantly in the garden? 


But then, a seed of my own, arrived. 

She found her first ground within my arms, 

stirring my wish, burying a garden I once dreamed, 

to bloom only you, my heart. 


I tucked away my dreams to sow the garden of knowledge, 

choosing to cradle this fragile, unrooted seed from heaven. 

Now, with flour-stained hands, I plant you tenderly in silence, 

could I be the one, your quiet friend beneath the sun? 


Now my little bloom has opened wide,  

as butterflies gather near.  

As her petals settle where the wind leads, 

could I be the one, the home where the wind leads to?” 


Outside, the green trees have started to turn yellow.  

She’s always been with me,  

but where was I for her? 

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